I MISS YOU

Hey, I know we haven't seen each other or even talked to each other in a while. But I want you to know that I've been doing a lot of thinking lately and I want you to know that- I miss you. Not 'I regret what happened' or 'I wanna see you again', just...I miss you. Just- I miss you. It's so strange to think that someone I knew so well is now a total stranger to me, that sometimes I go entire days without thinking about you, at all. Most of the time I let myself forget because it's easier. But then I find something- A photo, a gift, the stupid love letters we used to give each other and the full weight of what's being lost crashes down on me.

Part of me wants to see you again, to hold you again, to kiss you- again. But all those feelings become empty thoughts when I look back now remembering that love isn't what it seems. It's just so easy to forget...but this isn't regret, we had our reasons for ending it and they were as valid as ever...but...back at the start, we didn't need any reasons to fall in love- we just did. The reasons came at the end and everything since then has been about the reasons and that's good because it means one day I'll find someone I won't have to say goodbye to. But. A part of me just misses loving someone and having them love you back- that's all. 

I guess what I'm saying is, I hope things are good. I hope everything's great. I hope you have found a love that's all the things ours couldn't be. But just a small part of me hopes that you still remember what it was like before all the reasons and that, you miss me too.

So, no. I haven't written this. And yes, I might get sued for copyright issues or something. I don't know. But this was something I found months ago and ever since I've been re-reading. I hope it makes you feel a certain way too.
~Nidhi xo

We're all just trying to forget.