BRICOLEUR

As an add-on to the last post where a lot of us could relate to school and the pressure and those useless to-do lists, I decided to highlight the reason some of us are pulling all-nighters finishing assignments and homework which we obviously could have done like three days ago but pssht- Ain't nobody got time for that. It must've been the 'weekend' or a 'favourite TV show' or feeling the need to 'binge watch every single video on Buzzfeed' (but really cmon everyone's done that at least once)- all of which were much more important (obviously) than those chapters of physics and math problems- the ones you look at and give that long * sigh * to every time your eyes find them stacked on your desk, before you walk away avoiding the long hours of hard work you'll have to put in to complete them. Flash forward to 12am Sunday night - you're probably still texting your friends telling them about all the work you didn't do and how you'...

If you're anything like me, school is just an endless cycle of  'I need to make it through this week', every week. I hate school. Don't get me wrong, I love seeing my friends and learning new things everyday.I hate school because we get judged for how well we can memorise our textbooks. We go to school 6-7 hours a day and take classes that probably won't benefit us in the long run and go home and do 3 hours of homework. We learn about covalent bonds and quadratic equations and how to prove triangles similar? Totally going to help us when we are struggling in real life situations. On the other hand teaching us how to be better people might be slightly beneficial given that  more than half the people in high school are 99.9% bitch. Now that we've established my hatred, reality is there's nothing we can do about it. The system is never going to change and neither are the people around us. We have almost 2 weeks to the over exaggerated, time-to-put-in-hard work...

Looking outside the window, I can't help smiling to myself about how obsessed I am with the quote " Autumn is such a beautiful season; yet everything is dying ". It was probably because I see it everyday. Autumn doesn't last forever in the plant side. It's passed on. To us humans. And then back again. Thus it repeats. But if noticed, autumn is more of a human phase rather than a season. The trees look absolutely stunning.  So does the girl in front of me. Like everyone who despised beauty and threw rocks at diamonds, I can't help admit that iI  once  thought she was what everyone used to say. Since she's wearing shorts, it didn't take much time while i was passing by to notice the marks on her thighs. They were claws. Jagged lines that ended abruptly. Scars. Never had anyone looked more beautiful. I have to admit, I couldn't help admiring them. They were beautiful in a way that a face of clear skin could never be, a kind that couldn't even...

As absurd as this sounds, you're the only one who'll understand. I miss the tests, the projects, tons of homework. Yeah it sounds like I'm a nerd but no. It takes my mind off things. I like having a book by my side always. And I do.  I do have 2 books. I have maybe like a few leftover sums and questions to complete,  but today isn't the same. Never have I felt so lonely in my room. Never have I been in the dark and thought about anything but ghosts. But today,  I'm not afraid of the dark. It's my solace now. My companion. My shadow. Never have I ever sat on my bed and felt lost. Never have I sat at my table and felt...useless... or hopeless you could say. like~ Why breathe if you know you're going to die anyway? Today,  I can concentrate. I never thought that things could just turn. I mean I know pain and joy are two sides of the coin,  but how can these be so extreme? They say there's sunshine after rain,  good th...

 It all began like any other story. We hated each other cold. But it melted away when the first few sparks of friendship changed everything. The sparks grew into a strong blue flame. Somehow it never managed to turn red. It was almost like a masquerade. We pretended to be and not to be. Surprisingly it only brought us closer. We used to build ourselves this perfect world and break it all apart ever so often that it became a routine. We turned friendship cynical.  We did the stupidest things and I have so much to remember. Honestly, I dont think I was anything or anyone before these people. They've changed me in an irreversible way and I dont really know if I'm supposed to be grateful or lost to myself. I loved how we could talk about nothing and everything at the same time. They gave me a sense of belonging and I felt complete. Together we were the sharp autumn breeze on searing afternoons. Summer soon drifted and turned into autumn itself and like everyone else we fa...

Messed up,  the definition of every teenager's life. and then we all do the stupid mistake of thinking we're the only ones. We point at one another and judge how much easier the other has it. It's staying up late and thinking about people who don't care and probably wont ever care. It's taking up a handful of problems when you know you're never going to be able to hold them all together. It's staring into infinity and realising everything's changed and that its never going to be the same ever again. It's being so sad that you cant even cry. It's breaking down at the most unexpected moments. It's screaming at the wrong people about the wrong things. It's accusing and misunderstanding. It's holding back and bottling up your thoughts because you don't want to be a burden. It's convincing yourself that you don't deserve to be happy. If you say you haven't gone through that you'd be lying. That would be smoke without ...

Society: Are you below 45 kgs? Girl: No but, it's okay I'm happy Society: Are you 5"9? Girl: No but I'm happy Society: Do you have a flawless face? Girl: No but I'm.... Society: Do you have long legs? Girl: No but... Society: Do you have a perfect figure? Girl: No.... Society: Do you have a perfect,beautiful smile? Society:  Do you have a thigh gap? Society: Do you have silky shiny hair? Society: You're soooo......ugly and unloved....and..... *Girl suicides* Society: But why did she suicide she was so pretty and loved and talented,she was so perfect.We all are going to miss her a lot. Society is never gonna change. You can never impress them, they are always gonna expect more and more from you. They are always gonna put you down. They are always gonna  say that you're too thin or too fat or too short or too tall or too...ughhhh...THEY CAN NEVER APPRECIATE AND THEY WILL ALWAYS BE RUDE. There is no changing that...instead of trying to make yourself the so c...